,,,didn't sleep at all,
now it's10:30AM but
I 've been writing and sending just only e-mails, Oh,No!?

(to be continued)


Last evening I got invite mail about my performance there of  TODAY
from music bar where refused my asking once,in Sceava.
So Today  I phoned them and am waiting their call back,,

This morning my CS-host in Sceava sent me mail that
her family had urgent big problem so she can't host me anymore
,,,then she sent me again, Anyway they can host me.

4:30pm is changing time to dark sky, besides strong coldness and wind,
after all I didn't start to hitch,
then 7PM the bar phoned me "Only Today you could play"
,,today I haven't gone out,
each of host and mates are busy inside flat though,
I remembered again that
Surfing to same host again is not better because I don't bring them any new something.
I can use Internet all the time here though,
I got depress naturally again, even if others seems don't care my non-communication' staying here,,

I've found some people are rumoring about me on "mixi"
(---Japanese original facebook, most of Japanese use it but not facebook, and most of members is registering by fake nickname and fake photos so I don't like it),
one of them is the one who cohabited with me for over 3 years though,
was writing "He is my acquaintance" ,, I feel Japan is away from me,,
but
I've also found her favorite word that moved me in her profile:
" The day of  Today that you lived in vain
is the same as Tomorrow that someone who died yesterday longed to live ardently."

at 0 AM, I still can't start writing blog,,

(to be continued)