I don't know what to do

Happy Haloween! ,,but What is Halloween?
Goodbye summertime today!
so I enjoyed to sleep extra 1 hour in the morning,,,but then,soon it got to be night.
Lately I'm just writing diary almost all day,it means,if I write blog I need 48 hours for 1 day!?
I was used to write blog on CSing profile, so here is still not comfortable,but someone told me another blog website is more better,,??
Somehow I already got out from CSing addiction,so lately I'm sleeping in the night,not for computer for CSing.
Then,in Chisinau,by 2 concerts,my state of mind and body has changed a bit,
besides I'm staying super nice family for over 10 days,besides we often talk about life and God (even if I'm not religious)like family or close friend,,it's crisis of my travel again,I can't move from here.
Most of future Moldovan CS-hosts cancelled me as I expected,it's OK but I can't start sending too many e-mails to CSer in next country as before,CSing and even travel is not attractive for me now.
Now I just want to perform my music and write all of my 3 years here and send mails to everyone whom I like
,,but I know I will move somewhere soon,as it's my nature,and everyday I will answer to question "Why did you decide travel?" even if there's no answer to it but it's my job.